I woke up in a panic, heart filled with dread and my stomach squeezed in knots.
Its 6:30 am. I glance out the summery May morning and all is tranquil and peaceful. There is no reason to be fearful. Everything at work is going well, have a great weekend lined up and there is no letter on my door trying to collect a bill or telling me I am pregnant.
I ponder what I may be worried about and it bugs me through breakfast, the way to work, and throughout the morning. Memos and calenders tell me that all systems are go and to chill. There is a nagging sense in the back of my mind that I really should have done something that I havent yet. Have I forgotten someones birthday?
The answer hits me while I read the paper over coffee.
What I realise my brain is trying to tell me, is that I have neglected to do enough exam revision. Seriously. Its May, my internal annual clock knows there is ALWAYS an exam around this time. Instead of having a good day, surely I should be crammed in some dungeon with a pile of text books making spider diagrams and charts about the endocrine system or the themes of Wuthering Heights.
Yes, I was guilt tripping for not preparing for A-level exams that had taken place a decade ago. Twisted beyond belief, no? But still all over the country boys and girls are cracking open highlighters and pointlessly writing acres and acres of tedious notes they will never read again, while wistfully looking out the window and wishing they could go out. Mothers gingerly bringing cups of tea, while dads tell them "Shouldn't you be studying?" when they catch you on a 20 minute breather watching the end of Coronation Street.
Then what I already should have known for a long time hits me. No exams ever again.
Suddenly my day gets a lot better.
The Cabin In The Woods
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3 comments:
Mothers were bringing kids cups of tea until they announced on the radio today that parents can literally buy a ball and chain that ties to your ankle and it's so heavy you actually can't move. oh and locks for upto 4 hours unless you open it with a safety key. I am crap at getting down to work (hence me online now when I have an exam tomorrow morning) so I'm glad this wasn't around when I was doing my A Levels!
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and in regard to you not having any exams... 6 days and I'll be free! 3 more to go until that point though...
My first exam free summer... I have definitely had the guilt.
But also my first summer where I have to work full time and don't have endless weeks to do nothing in and pretend a part time job is hard work..
I heard them talking about that on the radio yesterday too! Imagine your parents tying you to a ball and chain to make you study! Ridiculous!!
I also have that weird feeling that I should be studying at the moment too, but this is the first exam free month of May I have had in about 8 years :)
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