We've got to get out of this place.

Its Friday, I am still at my job, but it clearly is not over until the fat lady sings. (Note: Fat lady not me). Feeling a bit better, but I was quite shocked. I had no idea financially things were looking so bad, especially when everyone around me is talking about economic recovery and job creation.

One of the hardest things this week was finding out that Priya has to go. Apparently things have not been great with her and my boss for a long time, and if I am being honest I will admit I probably did pick up on this but did not really want to see it. I know that turning up later than your boss, and being quite sarky is not the best way to be earning a promotion, but I always saw that as her character and that her positives more than made up for it. The chief clearly thought differently, and now my trio of musketeers is down one.

Its funny how we can fool ourselves. I clearly thought that things were better than they were, and I can't blame myself for not knowing that. However, looking back I can tell that when things were getting tough I automatically started doing more in order to justify my job and making myself "indespensible". In hindsight, it's probably what kept me on longer than I should have been when I was on fixed term contacts as an assistant psychologist, so it was automatic for me. Longer days, more evidence you are working, even volunteering for taking minutes and doing little things like that probably helped me keep my job (or made me appear like a massive suck up depending on which way you look at it).

As I said I am a bit shocked, especially after not being around for a bit. Its like the movie I was watching before I left was "Little women" and I have come back and its switched to "Friday 13th" and we are all being picked off one by one.